short short

in my haste to avoid tons of hair falling out all over the place, i decided to channel halle berry and get my hair cut shorter still. i think it helps me, in part, deny the inevitable fall out...while i'm not sold on this look either, this morning i found hair on my pillow, on the towel i used to dry my hair and i know it's better coming out like this as opposed to in longer strands everywhere for me.

.i got this note from a friend who ended her chemo about a month ago. i thought really helped describe the emotional and mental angst women go through with the whole hair thing....

"Unfortunately, the one visible sign of cancer is being bald. When it came time to shave my head I was ready and believe it or not did not cry. I felt it was the one thing I was able to do on my terms. Again, I brought a friend with me and we had lunch "before". The week before I had brought my children to the salon to see the wig so there were no surprises. They were excited because the wig was longer than my natural hair and they thought it was glamorous.

I know that loosing your hair is a very emotional thing, however I think eventually you move on to getting through your treatments and looking towards recovery. I heard this from others and read it in books, and at the time it seemed so scary and unbelievable that this was happening to me. Again the treatment process is so personal, and unfortunately it is a process we all must go through.

Now it is like...what just happened? Everyday I feel stronger and am looking forward to getting back to my normal routines. I look at this "cancer thing" as a "huge" inconvenience. I am so thankful that it was caught early and that I will have many years ahead with my family and friends, as will you. After all of this is over we will have to go out and celebrate!!"

i am looking forward to being done with this inconvenience.