lymphedema

very frustrating. either from flying or the altitude or the skiing or some combination of the two, i have swelling in my right hand. i hit my low spot on the first day of skiing....we had taken a few runs and had stopped at one of the lodges when i noticed that my hand seemed swollen. i had worn a sleeve to fly that felt like it was cutting off the circulation at my wrist but what would i know? i had ordered the sleeve like i was told and was wearing it to protect agst lymphedema...trying not to freak out i told the kids to keep skiing and that i would go call some people to figure this out.

i called my pt person, my oncologist's office and then tried to rebuy a glove and sleeve for the airplane home and have them shipped to the place i was staying.

after accomplishing all this, i went into the bathroom at our condo (why is it always in the bathroom?) and started sobbing hysterically. i wanted to feel normal after all those months of chemo and to not think about the cancer - just for the 4 days of skiing.

instead, it's like i keep getting hit in the ass with it. not only am i the only bald girl i notice skiing but i'm also the only one with a swollen right hand, a huge black & blue on her belly (the shot so my ovaries won't work) and the one with more shit to look forward to upon my return.

hard to not feel somewhat sorry for myself. what other part of my body won't function the way it's supposed to when all this is said and done?

so i had my cry, put on my boots and went skiing.