perfect storm

swirling vortex of shit. what should i call that? diarrhea?

went into surgery with high hopes that it was the beginning of the end. now i liken it to doing house construction. you open a wall up and there's always something there that was not expected. in my case it has still not come to a satisfactory end. they found something under both NAC sites....now there is dissension between cornell and nyu as to what that was. this in addition to another tumor in the supposedly unaffected breast. have wavered between taking off the whole thing and just "popping the top" off what i now call the muffin. or taking off what i now refer to as the pepperoni. those of you who have some imagination can probably figure this out.

have researched and spoken to everyone and apparently i fall into the grey area and no one knows exactly what to advise/ tell and no one really able to give me definite risks for any of the surgeries / non surgeries. not fun. not positive. not happy.