some days it hits me again

i went to my sam's back to school night last night. most of the time i'm good - so good. i don't think about the cancer and i don't really dwell on it but for whatever reason last night i was thrust back into remembering that i did have cancer...when i told sam's science teacher that i'd had it last year but that i was "all good" and on the road to recovery i got teary eyed.

sometimes i think when i realize that my kids are the kids that will be watched carefully - in case they get upset, in case something happens - and that i can't change that. and again, it's those random acts of kindness that hit you that you can bring you to your knees.

i got this email from one of sam's teachers when i emailed him last night:

"We had a heads up about your cancer from the Guidance Counselor. I'm glad that

it's going well and that Sam is dealing with it well. We will continue to be  watchful.  I'm glad to have your last kid. He is a joy--thoughtful, intelligent, and  enthusiastic.   "

so nice.