pandora’s box

f-me f-me f-me. i went for a regular check up for my insides and the technician saw a cyst on my pancreas. i don’t even like saying that part of my body. the pancreas. can you survive without one? when i went on the internet (always a big mistake) it said that most cysts are benign although sometimes they can be precancerous. if it is, i guess the good new is that i got it very early / small. the technician said it was the size of the head of a pin. my ob onc didn’t really go into too much detail. in fact, i think she informed me about it while she still had her finger up my butt . not good. not a particularly caring way to tell an ex cancer girl that they didn’t like something on the sonogram!

it’s like my plastic guy said, though. if you start looking for something, chances are high that you are going to find something. everyone’s got something that just isn’t 100% - the question is whether it’s dangerous to your well being. this i think is one of those things that will be ok ultimately but oh how i hate having anything else to look at.